Hi my friends!
I feel like it’s been a while since I had posted a blog and it’s probably because it has been! Let me update you on what’s been going on since my last blog post All things come to an end and if you haven’t read it, feel free to click on the link to better understand today’s post.
Lately i’ve been feeling confused and under-pressure. As you may already know, I had chosen to not sign another year lease at my current work place because I felt peace about something new after working as a barber for now eight years. Well, my lease will be up by the end of May, and now i’m struggling with discerning Gods voice to my own, desiring to want His vision for my life instead of what I think I want.
The good; is that I know the gifts and talents that God has blessed me with. I’m confident that I can cut hair anywhere and wherever I go as long as I have my clippers, scissors and a chair and the love for serving people. I know that I can whip up amazing and healthy meals and practice recording/taking photos of it all at any given time for fun as well as to better nourish my body. And as long as I have my phone, my laptop and wifi I can write as many blogs as I can wherever I am for Gods glory. All of these things I know I can do and glorify God wherever and whenever I can as I truly enjoy doing them.
The bad; is that I’m not exactly sure where I should be located establishing the fact that barbering is my only source of income and I’m having a hard time leaving behind long-term relationships. For a few months now, I had partnered up with a friend to pursue what I thought I wanted assuming we were both on the same page, but now realizing that we might not have the same vision or calling has caused me to put aside my own vision and dreams. I’m not blaming him by any means, I do believe sometimes people come into our lives for a season or a reason, but when we put aside what we assume our own calling is knowing that we set aside what truly gives us joy, then perhaps it’s not what we should be putting our energy and focus on.
The ugly; is the thought of me really having a hard time leaving my current location or, trusting that God will provide wherever I go. Whether it is using these three gifts and talents mentioned He’s blessed me with or, choosing to let go of one or the other frightens me. My mind honestly goes wild at the thought of having to surrender my only source of income. Not only am I ashamed of perhaps not fully trusting God will provide, I might have fallen into a familiar temptation to submit to others (especially men) out of desiring to please them.
Confusion does not come from God. God wants us to faithfully trust Him and obey Him. Where He guides, He will provide, but we must submit to Him and spend intentional time with Him.
“Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and He will establish your plans.” ~Proverbs 16:3
“Don’t worry about anything; Instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all that He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace…” ~Philippians 4:6-7
I’m not sharing my struggles to discourage you, but to hopefully encourage you to also know that you’re not alone in your struggles from discerning Gods voice. This May 12th-15th, I have the privilege to surrender and go on a retreat with my God-sent Mama, (blogger and author of “Dare to Respect”,) Tammy De La Garza, whom I dearly love and has been a huge blessing to my life. Hoping we clearly hear Gods voice and submit to His desire for us, I pray the same for you and that this blesses you in any way… 🙂
Trust God, and Do Good…