Assuming you have read my last blog post, The Good, The Bad & The Ugly , you might remember how I mentioned my confusion about where God might be leading me to next and my fear of leaving behind my career as a barber since 2011. Well….
(Me in my walk at a forest!)
(Part of the view I had on this adventure. Ugh, I love nature!)
I had an amazing time on my retreat in Wisconsin Dells these past few days. It was truly much needed! With my phone on airplane mode and majority of my time devoted in prayer and spending intentional time in scripture, God surely came through. He revealed Himself more and more as I spent time with Him, but the last day there was when it clearly hit me. I broke down into tears with a bittersweet sensation. I was torn to realize that I was beginning to prioritize money over Him once I began to worry about possibly not having a job by the end of this month of May.
“No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the the other. You cannot serve God and money.” ~Matthew 6:24
This truly broke me down. I felt so ashamed of myself. I thought I was trusting Him, but in the end I wasn’t. I know He was the one to give me peace when I took the initiative two months ago not to sign another year lease, but I thought it was because He was leading me to another workplace to pursue barbering and once I sensed that it wasn’t where He wanted me to be, I panicked! Don’t misunderstand me, I truly LOVE my career as a barber. God not only blessed me with amazing clients/friendships, He helped me go from a dark place in my life that was filled with heartache from a difficult marriage/divorce, depression, living in sin with someone whom wasn’t my husband, etc, to giving my life to Christ in 2017. My last few years of working as a barber turned into my ministry and I enjoyed every moment of it! God worked in me and through me and I know He’s blessed many people through this journey and i’m beyond grateful to have been used in this way.
Honestly, I have peace about starting something new. What exactly that new thing is, i’m not sure nor do I have a plan. Heck, I don’t even know how i’ll have an income starting this next month of June, but God has told me that He is faithful and that He will provide. In fact, I know I’ve been praying and learning about wanting a minimalistic lifestyle, I think this is Him answering that prayer. Have I mentioned that God has a funny sense of humor? Well He does! Be careful what you pray for HAHA…
“Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not for more value than they?” ~Matthew 6:26
When we give our lives to Jesus and as long as we’re still breathing, God’s not finished with us. Our careers may change and our plans may fail, but God continues to work in us and through us. As Paul encouraged Timothy reminding him that God did not give him a spirit of fear or timidity, but of power and love and self- control (2 Timothy 1:7), I want to also encourage you and myself to let go and let God guide us to where He wants us, even if it doesn’t make any sense.
If we have died with Him, we will also live with Him;
if we endure, we will also reign with Him;
if we deny Him, he also will deny us;
if we are faithless, He remains faithful for He cannot deny Himself.
~2 Timothy 2:12-13
(I’m not a painter LOL, but He gave me this word on my retreat to paint as a reminder of His faithfulness).
Thanks to my God sent Mama, Tammy, for making this second amazing retreat possible! And for my beautiful group of friends whom are prayer warriors and always teaching me to follow Jesus! I couldn’t do any of this without any of you 🙂
Trust God, and Do good… 😉